I did well on this last manic stage. I didn't go to any bars, but I did drink on Saturday at the Zombie Crawl 2010 in Denver. I used WOW (World of Warcraft) along with football games as a way of distracting my mind on Sunday which worked very well. My mind was occupied and happy, it kept the dangerous 'bored' feeling my mind gets which is what usually gets me in trouble during my manic stage...aka spending all my money at a strip club or bar or dance club. I also found an exercises that I enjoy and helps expend the energy needed to keep the hypersexuality at bay.
The Zombie Crawl 2010 in Denver was fun. There was over 6000 people there in costumes ranging all over from Zombies to S.W.A.T to Umbrella Corporation Soldier's to Survivors. I decided to go as a zombie with my own unique twist based on Seth Green's character in "Idle Hands". In the movie Seth Green is killed by a broken beer bottle stabbed into his head and he is undead for the rest of the movie with the beer bottle sticking out the side of his skull. A beer bottle is too heavy to glue to my head or a hat so I took it one joke farther and used a diet coke bottle that I glued to my hat and added lots of homemade fake blood. Here is a picture of how I looked:
All of that fake blood you see I had made using corn syrup, water, and food coloring. Well, all that sugar soaked into my skin and when I got to the zombie crawl I had a massive hypoglycemic attack that hit me fast and made me pass out for a couple of seconds, enough to put me on the ground. Luckily I was surrounded by my friends and other nice zombie strangers that got me something to eat to off set the hypoglycemia. After that I was fine for the rest of the day, except for the leg cramps I got from walking around for 4 hours. But, it was all worth it, I had a blast. What I didn't expect was that my costume was a surprise hit. I knew there would be some people that got the reference or would think it was cool. I did not expect to get asked to get my picture taken 40 or 50 times. Some people would just yell out, "Hey, Diet Coke! Can I take your picture?" I must say, I enjoyed the attention and the fact that there were people out there that appreciated the idea as much as I did.
I did not spend any money at the bar this weekend. I did drink a couple of beers and some scotch at the Zombie Crawl. Although I did not get drunk or even tipsy, I was in a feel good zone. This was a promising sign compared to the week before when I spent too much money drinking and allowed the drinking to diminish my ability to handle the last depression stage. Usually if i drink too much on my manic stage it exaggerates the hypersexuality, making it unmanageable, and I end up spending money at the strip bar just to get some female attention (which is obviously a horrible reason to go to a strip bar). So, I was proud of my ability to keep my amount of drinking under control during my manic stage.
As I stated in previous entries in this Bipolar II journal, I restarted my WOW account. Reason being that it will give my mind something to concentrate on making it easier to deal with the waves and decreasing the amount of mental fatigue I get from having to mentally fight my own thoughts during the different stages. Well, while I was playing WOW this weekend I was also trying to think of exercises I can do to equal the amount of energy expulsion needed to lessen the hypersexuality symptoms. I was trying to think of an exercise I would enjoy doing, because if you enjoy the exercise then you are more willing to do it. I thought of what exercises I have seen that I was attracted too, even if I know I can't do it. Running/Jogging has always appealed to me, ever since I was a kid. I use to watch joggers in the neighborhood and be jealous that I could not do that. I started doing some research online for plans that help beginners build up the stamina needed to run/jog long distances. I found a site that gave some great information on how people can start to train to be a runner (http://www.halhigdon.com/beginrunner/plan.htm).
Everything above was written on the 27th at work and at home. I went to bed and when I woke up I felt lazy and lethargic which shows me that I am moving into the depression stage. So, this entry is going to include the 28th also. Here is where I am now and then I will continue with my previous thought:
Now that I got that out of the way, moving onto my previous thought.
Anyway, the exercise did a really good job of helping make the hypersexuality more manageable. There was also an effect I didn't expect in that the exercise gave me something to concentrate on and helped calm my mind also. It is working great for the manic stage and although I am sure it would help the depression stage, it is hard to exercise. It was nice outside today and I should have gone to do my walk/jog, but I was not able to get enough motivation to do it. So, it looks like I will be doing the exercise when I am normal and manic. I'm going to continue to try to get out and do some exercise in my depression stage, but it is going to be very difficult to get the energy to do it. We will see how tomorrow goes.
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