I have been stuck in this current depression cycle for 4 days now and I'm not feeling it lightening up soon. I think the reason it is lasting so long this time is because I keep forgetting to take my vitamins and therefore I am not getting the B vitamins that my brain needs to fight the Bipolar II. I am hoping that if I can get back on schedule with my vitamins that the depression will end soon.
I usually do a good job of hiding my depression cycles, most people don't know I'm in one unless I tell them. But, I am starting to lose my composure today. I just don't have the energy to fight it and put on a happy face, as I usually do. If you have been reading my Weight Loss Journal posts then you would know that I am on a self imposed diet right now. One of the things I have observed during this depression is that I am not eating the healthy foods that I should. Although, I am keeping my calorie count for the day under my burn, I am eating crap food that tastes good. I think subconsciously I am doing that in an attempt to comfort myself during the depression. Ironically, eating the crap food is comforting for a min and then the depression gets worse because I feel disappointed that I made a poor food choice. This weeks weight loss will probably be low if not zero, unless my work outs make up for the crap calories I have been having trouble staying away from.
Another reason I think my depression cycle is lasting longer this time around may have been because I've had a bad month. Car accident, injuries, unwanted expenses, and lack of a regular social life has been chipping away at my demeanor. I am ready for a break from the crap and could really use something good to happen soon.
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