Yesterday threw me for a loop, a loopidy loopy loop. On Saturday I ended my night at work in the beginning stages of manic and was prepared to handle the fast paced mind and Hypersexuality. But, when I woke up on Saturday night to go to work, I felt fine, just like the normal stage. I was confused and thought that maybe the manic stage I had on Saturday morning was an early stage and that the main part would show up yesterday. Instead, I never got manic again and stayed normal for Sunday and Monday. On Monday night I was confused again because I started the depression stage. I must have slept through the manic stage on Saturday and it must have only lasted 12 hours on this cycle, instead of the usually 2 days as before.
I was confused even more when I was walking home from the bar (Coyote Ugly) and was feeling the Hypersexuality. This should be impossible because the manic stage causes the Hypersexuality. It takes a lot of mental energy to fight the depression and now I was confused by the unusual Hypersexuality. That confusion took my concentration away from fighting the depression and turned my attention into trying to figure out what was going on. Before I knew it the depression took hold in the background spiraling me down quickly to where I am right now. So at that point I was not only Hypersexual, but I was also hating myself in a semi-bad depression. Not a good mix. Luckily I have some great friends that I was talking to online and texting at 3 am and they helped me calm my mind down enough for me to get a couple hours of sleep today.
There is one of two things that happened yesterday. Either my Hypersexuality is not connected to my Bipolar II (very unlikely) or it was the alcohol I had Monday night that caused it. I am going to have to stop drinking for a few cycles to see. I also want to make sure that I have my cycles figured out and controlled better before I drink again. When I do start to drink again I will have to test it during different times in my cycle to see when I should avoid alcohol.
We are discussing Bi-Polar Type 2 correct? And currently I'm jobless so look at my fb profile and get my number. If its in the middle of the night send a txt saying "where's my droid". That will get me moving. Also I understand those desieses fairly well as thyey run in my family :) so now to uncouver who I am. Let's just say I'm a very puntable gnome but don't mess with my dk. He woops butt.
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ReplyDeletelol Chris, yeah we I have Bipolar II so that is what I am journaling about. ;p
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